i am generally an optimistic glass half full kind of lass. i believe in happily ever after and rising through the ashes and beating the odds. i have seen people go through the worst and come out the other side, better and stronger and wiser. i have read about losing it all and gaining yourself and living in the knowledge that your grass is just as green as the other sides. i believe in solutions and forgiveness and that good prevails, no matter how uphill its road may be. i believe in opposites attracting and impossible odds winning.
with one big exception.
i don't believe in peace. let me clarify - i don't believe in the peace in the middle east that everybody sits and plans and reports and circles around. i don't believe it's possible. whenever we talk about it and demand it and work to try to organize it, religion is thrown into the mix and it is all downhill from there. religion, i think, is a detour to peace. i've been reading and hearing about this impending peace for years, and the more time passes the more i am discouraged. peace is not possible, not under the blanket of religion and ethnicity. bosnia, palestine, rwanda, india, pakistan etc etc... - shia, sunni, jew, hutu, tutsi, serb, christian, hindu, sikh - on and on and on.
sometimes i miss that, now blurred, wide eyed we can change the world attitude of mine. i miss the hope i had when the people of iran voted a couple of years ago or when arafat and rabin shook hands on the white house lawn 18 years ago. opportunities full of substance with inevitable hollow results.
so maybe i'm not that much a glass half full kind of girl after all. maybe i believe in the heart, but not the mind and i believe in the people but not their god. yet i still keep reading and wondering and thinking, maybe, just maybe one moment, one decision, one voice will be the tipping point. maybe.
one more try
"when it is darkest, men see the stars". - emerson
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